Wow, I can't believe it, another term down and I don't know how many left to go. At least I'm getting closer, so that's nice. I am starting to see a bit of a glow at the end of a very long tunnel. While I'm excited to finish school, I'm also a bit scared. I haven't been in the job market for quite some time and by the time I'm done with school I will have been out of it for even longer. I'm getting older and less marketable because of it so I have to make double sure I make up for it in skill and education. I'm going into a brand new field I've never ventured into before.
On the bright side of things, I am feeling better than I ever have. My mood is better, I have more energy and I'm just generally happier. So things are good.
Monday, August 17, 2009
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
A journey of rediscovery
Of my self, that is. It's a very personal journey that I have recently embarked on. Someplace along the line, I seem to have lost my self, forgotten who I am, lost my way. I am finally starting to feel like I know who I am again. Or maybe it's for the first time. I'm not really sure yet. I feel better than I ever have. I feel balanced, under control, happy and comfortable with my self. I"m finding the more I work on myself, the better I feel.
I finally have drive, ambition and desire. Things I've seemed to lack my entire life. I've always been a bit of a floater, wandering through life. Now, I feel somewhat in control of my life, my future and my surroundings. For the first time in my life, I feel like I am going to succeed. Things don't feel totally overwhelming any more. I don't feel hopeless, useless and depressed.
I thought for years that I had everything under control, that I didn't need any help, or any meds. How wrong I was. My two months of flipping out was the hardest thing I've endured in life. I would never wish in on anyone, or ever care to repeat it. However, it was a huge catalyst in my life and finally motivated me to get the help I so badly needed.
I finally have drive, ambition and desire. Things I've seemed to lack my entire life. I've always been a bit of a floater, wandering through life. Now, I feel somewhat in control of my life, my future and my surroundings. For the first time in my life, I feel like I am going to succeed. Things don't feel totally overwhelming any more. I don't feel hopeless, useless and depressed.
I thought for years that I had everything under control, that I didn't need any help, or any meds. How wrong I was. My two months of flipping out was the hardest thing I've endured in life. I would never wish in on anyone, or ever care to repeat it. However, it was a huge catalyst in my life and finally motivated me to get the help I so badly needed.
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